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[fantasticmuse]

The song that defines my life right now? "I Never" by Rilo Kiley.

I have been struggling to stay on my meds for the past few days. This is bad because my blood sugar is going to be fucked beyond all reason if I don't shape up. Sigh.

Tonight I feel plagued by insecurities, quite a contrast to last night's ambition. I'm fretting about this job business. I think this is caused by 80% insecurity and 20% thinking too damn much. The whatifs as Shel Silverstein would call them.

On the other hand, I'm re-reading "Monstrous Regiment" and that's always a delight.

And my iTunes has been doing its best to console me, playing "Strength, Courage, Wisdom" and "Safe and Sound" one after another without any prompting from me. *pets the iTunes oracle* Sometimes music's all you have, really.

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[fantasticmuse.livejournal.com]

Heya, twin. I am working on the ode, but trochaic is hard. Somewhere along the way my brain decided that iambic was the only way to think. Silly brain.

I am still working on it-- hopefully I can be done in the next couple hours but I can't promise. I will keep you updated as the night goes on. :P Otherwise we maybe can just wait 'til you get back. How long will you be gone?

[vensre.livejournal.com]

::big eyes:: Stephen said that they do it iambic in England pretty often, and his example was iambic, so mine turned out (mostly) iambic as well. Ahh, I feel like I didn't follow any of the rules at all! Maybe I should start again.

I don't know. I hope to be able to get to the library tomorrow, but that'll be by bike and if I take my sedative tonight I doubt I'll manage that tomorrow. I might just skip that, since I have to be able to wake up. ::tugs at my hair:: If not tomorrow, I should be able to get to the library or to Mom's house on Monday.

I'll keep checking back with you until I go to sleep and again before I leave in the morning.

[fantasticmuse.livejournal.com]

*laugh* Stephen should share this fact far and wide, that's what I say. Rules are made to be broken, anyhow. :P

*snuggles* Don't fret. I will work my very hardest to have -something- up before dawn tomorrow. If I don't, shame on me and we'll just have to wait until you can post it.

[vensre.livejournal.com]

I'm sleeping now, but I'll check back in about 3.5 hours. x_____x

[fantasticmuse.livejournal.com]

Aww, my poor girl. Hope you're sleeping well, if not for long.

I finished the ode! Well. It's only two stanzas but they were the toughest of my life! The first is better than the second but that's okay.

Go ahead and post yours when you wake up. Imma put it here so you can see it, and then later tomorrow I will make a special post for it. =D

Hope you have a good day!


The Trick's in the Glass


Square frames, curved lens-- one look and I'm gone, each time.
Silk smiles, silk suits, you keep them: they don't suit me
The trick's in glass and one look can break and
make my heart shake-pound

Shed your dress and throw your new shoes away but
leave your glasses right where they are-- so you can
see my knees go weak and my eyes alight just
watching you be you